State of affairs in the market of paid CMS

I wanted, somehow, the author of these lines to create a website, but no such little site. It was supposed that on this site his friends would communicate on topics that were interesting only to them, eavesdrop on each other's podcasts, etc., etc. In general, the site shone in the mind of the creator with all the wonders of the wonders of enemy technology. Glittered, glittered and faded ...
In a nutshell, having spent some time searching for a suitable content management system, I came to a clear conviction that they bullied me. Well, I did not find the system, the creators of which would step up with the times, I did not find. My friends, is it really that bad?
I forgot to add that I am a complete “0” in programming (after all, CMS are created for me in particular). I really want to know the opinion of professionals about this. Thank.